Good morning!

I'm sure nobody reads this, and so I shouldn't be so nervous as I am. I'm also surprised to look back and see how briefly it was that I wrote here last year. Really only a few days, wasn't it? I think my error was in attempting to write before everything. I might just have to write this as the day goes.

Honesty

I wonder where the boundary lies between a piece of writing that is a bit personal and honest, versus something confessional or maybe exhibitionist. There's too much information about everyone online, and everyone is rewarded for divulging, divulging, divulging. I want to be coherent to people. I want to make sense, you know? But I don't want what I put online to be about baring my ass. It's not really anything special anyway.

That said, I do want to put down some information so I can just have it to refer to, I guess in case anybody asks about me.

I'm an internet native from well before the "think of the children" privacy nightmare that the last few years has been, so I'm accustomed to sorting activities in my life across multiple accounts on every site I use. It makes it easier for me to see what I want to see and do what I want to do. This has led to my online footprint being like... a labyrinthine mess. I can't keep up with myself. Sometimes I think of those "this insane redditor has 200 accounts" youtube videos that are like "ahhh so crazy and creepy that someone would do all this" and I just laugh.

Anyway, the main alter egos you need to worry about if you give a shit about me for some reason are these:

firstname alex lastname

• aka: "alex verano", "alex green", various usernames that mean "green pen"
• what for: ranting, fine art appreciation, physical art
• why so many usernames, alex?: i have a bunch of usernames for this guy of me essentially due to a breakup and trying to whine to friends online without being lightly stalked about it, lol. i'm good now, but my online footprint is a mess.
• why use your middle name, firstname?: my full name is the business of my parents, my employer, and the IRS.
• where's best to find me: bluesky

cave spider

• aka: endcant, cantend, cave
• what for: digital art, nature stuff, more punk/witchy/online vibe i guess
• why use this goofy name, cave?: it's a little more suited to the vibe of the art and posting i do there, and it was also my chosen name throughout my 20s (:
• where's best to find me: ko-fi or tumblr

Lately

AHDH has been killing me. One of my latest ADHD ventures was making some feeds for bluesky, which I'm not sure I'll even use. One of them is a list for looking at fine art in general, and the other is a list for looking at fine artists I already know I'm interested in. Seems interesting, maybe, but every day sees some new venture that has nothing to do with the main questline of my life.

Right now I ought to be packing to move! Am I doing that? No. I mean I guess I can do that. Let me go work on that for a bit and I'll report how it went.

packing session loading...

You don't want to know how long I spent doing anything but packing. I sorted out some books I don't want, but not enough!